Io vorrei sapere come fa la zucchina romana a costare 5.69 euro al kilo mentre l'avocado sta a 3.39, capisco che è fuori stagione, di serra, il blocco dei TIR, gli aumenti di Natale, il petrolio, il dollaro che scende e l'euro che sale, etc. etc. etc. ... ma l'avocado è d'importazione e la zucchina arrivava da meno di 50 km da casa mia. Ma come c@zzo do you pay less than a cake of bread. 'Cause Christmas is all hysterical and full of anxiety? 'Cause we go shopping like we're coming to the rationing of food (the shops re-opened on 27 ... mica in six months)? 'Cause also increase towels (I swear I checked that I bought them last week) and Scotch? Christmas is good news that comes as a whisper. E 'dim lights of candles and the smell of the barn. E 'silence to look inside And then looked at each other straight in the eye. 'Cause we are not at all been good. 'Cause there's nothing to rejoice. 'Cause we're here now and not after the kingdom of heaven. A child born in a barn is too little, is too small. E ' a candle that seeks to illuminate all the darkness. And 'nothing in the complexity' of the world. Faith is the only thing that helps me to understand the foolishness of God My piece of a candle to illuminate all the darkness. Christmas is good news that comes as a whisper. The whisper of God, ruah, women's singles, best רוח הקודש, ruah HaKodesh "," Holy Spirit ", no, no, no, Holy Spirit, no, better to fill the power of God that men and women. The female side of God, that if it was not even a woman would not have made in his Image and likeness. HaKodesh Ruah, the dynamic impulse, not the capacity 'to understand or illuminate the intellectual, but the ability 'of wind, breath, to move things without touching them, something intangible that has an effect on concrete, which affects "materials". Christmas is good news that comes as a whisper and a candle to illuminate all the darkness. Here there is too much noise and too much light.
Under the Stars of Mexico to drilling, mining oil forget, and evenings when night falls go.
There's this song by De Gregori I bounce from one hemisphere of the brain to another, takes me back in time. In another me, a thousand other distant me. I think of how many women have been e a quella che vorrei veramente essere. Me stessa, quella da non tradire mai. Tradita a volte per amore o per rabbia, per vendetta o per sfida. Sono mesi che non riesco a guardare piu' al futuro. Cerco di capire il passato, ma non mi aiuta ad andare avanti. Stasera sono stanca di stare con lo sguardo fisso indietro.
Diagnosi: squilibrio fra i fattori aggressivi (acido cloridrico, pepsina...) e fattori protettivi (barriera della mucosa, secrezione di bicarbonato...), no presence of Helicobacter pylori. In other words I was puncturing the duodenum with my juices. The 'where he makes a turn was a beautiful pozzangheretta ... I was digging the grave. Risk lacerations. Three out of four gastroenterologists had identified the same cause: depression. Autopunendo I was, I was hurting its own, no biological cause, just mental. One was even direct terrorist: it has two options' Miss, one, makes me rich, and every year you sew up one of the holes that you power of attorney, so when the body has learned ... there are no drugs of any kind; two enter into therapy this week, and I promise you that in two months without work, the walls of his duodenum ritornano allo spessore normale. E non prenda sottogamba quello che le sto dicendo: sta messa peggio dei mie pazienti con tumore. Dopo di lui ne ho sentiti altri tre. Perche' nn si dica che mi fido del primo che passa. A ricordarmi quelle parole c'è una ecografia che ho tenuto, l'ultima, dove non si vede nessuna differenza di spessore nelle pareti, appunto guarita, come disse lui in due mesi; ma ad un occhio piu' attento ed esperto so indicare l'esatto punto di una piccola cicatrice...perche' i dolori lasciano il segno, a futura memoria. Ma la depressione è ancora li', mi ferisce in modi diversi, anche se nn piu' al duodeno. La depressione è una malattia, non si cura con un'aspirina nè con un esorcismo. Did not seek it, is not contagious. You find it on you, is your second skin, is you. It 's like to be Batman and Joker, Lex Luthor and Superman, Spiderman and Green Goblin, unfortunately in the same body. How do you fight you without destroying or cancel? And at the same time are the worst enemy of yourself. In Italy affects 11% of the population (2004 data National Institute of Health')... in reality 'this is the percentage of those who have been diagnosed ... missing all submerged,' cause you shame. .. E '... a disease surrounded by ignorance and misinformation that create many prejudices. Most people mistake it for a drama of life, or only a psychological problem, believes that the only appropriate treatment is to force himself and react, too bad attitudes are counterproductive. Depression is a debilitating medical condition. I mean 'is an illness like another. It affects your body and soul, highlights the enduring relationship, interdependence and to fight this war on all fronts to learn.
And you're there to accept a disease that nobody understands, that many consider that others would pass in silence, trying to heal and live. Sometimes I seem to dig the grave with a silver spoon, slowly and inexorably. Drip. As the drops of acid on my duodenum.
Rock on, gold dust woman, take your silver spoon, dig your grave. Heartless challenge, pick your path and I'll pray. Wake up in the mornin', see your sunrise loves to go down. Lousy lovers pick their prey, but they never cry out loud, cry out. Well, did she make you cry, make you break down, shatter your illusions of love? And is it over now? Do you know how to pick up the pieces and go home? Mmm... Rock on, ancient queen, follow those who pale in your shadow. Rulers make bad lovers. You better put your kingdom up for sale, up for sale. Well, did she make you cry, make you break down, shatter your illusions of love? Well, is it over now? Do you know how to pick up the pieces and go home? Well, did she make you cry, make you break down, shatter your illusions of love? And now tell me, is it over now? Do you know how to pick up the pieces and go home, and go home? You pale shadow of a woman. Black widow. Pale shadow of a dragon. Black widow. Black widow. Gold Dust Woman Fleetwood mac
La sentivo, sapevo che si stava avvicinando, che avrebbe affilato le sue unghie sulla mia carne. L'ha fatto. E' esplosa dentro e mi ha sanded the soul. I softened the blow. I have a fever at 40, but outside you see nn. I cry and I keep crying. I hoarse from shouting. Nn Sorry if I send invitations to my funeral. But there is one place and it is for me. I Battut and lost: dreams, relationships, friendships, unable to keep anything. I'll be back in therapy and I lock myself in the world. Now without skin, anything is unmanageable. Try to enjoy your life to me nn failed.
... prepare the case, the direction of Milan, again, I have one of these surprises waiting for me: - weekend in paris - weekend in London - weekend in a castle
only clues: Take a document of identity 'and a nice dress, they mean nothing and everything and knowing the type ... can sidetrack well. I have done my standard: * Hairdresser : short and blacks who like 'can I put the red lipstick * Beauty: usual waxing and a manicure from fear * Shopping: little, that the money is running out to a
No what I was prepared to recognize in the mirror again. in the category of women who are shorter, dye, stretch, short hairstyle change when they change something in their lives ... important. I dyed my hair red just come back in Italy, and besides more 'short eppoi i boccoli, eppoi ancora piu' corti, eppoi la permanente, eppoi un altro rosso... eppoi ieri cortissimi, sbarazzini, neri, il mio colore naturale. Asciugati lisci. Finito. Infilo gli occhiali, mi guardo allo specchio, io. Mi riconosco...dopo molto tempo, tantissimo che mi sembra un secolo di lontananza da me. Sono io quella nello specchio. Sono di nuovo io. Non sono i capelli che mi cambiano l'anima o il carattere, ma riescono a ricordarmi da dove vengo, la mia storia...e gli ultimi tasselli si inseriscono nel puzzle complessivo, mi guardo e mi riconosco. Sorrido all'immaggine nello specchio. Cammino diversa, l'ha detto il brother.
Vado a fare la valigia...che senno perdo il treno...fate i bravi mentre sono via ;)
ore 00:22 sms sul mio cellulare "Siamo ubriachi e un battello a venezia ci portera' spero a destinazione. Il mio matrimionio è incipiente. Sono fuori di testa dall'euforia" Cappotto dalla sedia per la gioia. Che bello. Potessi abbracciarvi e baciarvi... c'è una tenera giovane donna troppo in gamba perche' lui fosse cosi' tonno da non stringerla a se per sempre.
ci sono persone che conosci e ti entrano subito nel cuore. ci sono amici che rivedi ed è come se nn fossero mai passati 8 months difficult, ugly and beautiful moments nn I had crossed the soul and scored. I reviewed today. After nearly a year. yet it seems like yesterday that I left. time has dug nn no distance. you have a bright smile and playful, especially rare in a man, that colors the air around when you talk, and when you turn it on, your eyes sparkle and your face lights up. and so 'today when you spoke of your children, your future, the hopes and disappointments that life gives us,' but also of the wonders that await us around the corner. I know, life with us has been stingy and generous at the same time. there are reports that nourish the soul and the eating and drinking and I forgot what I was si puo' stare bene a fare due chiacchere con te. grazie france'.
Roma è belissima, con qualsiasi tempo, con qualsiasi cielo. Puzza di smog, è caotica e muore di traffico. Eppure ha una magia tutta sua. Diversa dalla magia di Londra, di Venezia o di Praga. Oggi, la giravo in autobus e guardavo fuori dal finestrino, la vedevo uguale e diversissima, la stessa ed allo stesso tempo mi sembrava di visitare una citta' nuova, in continua evoluzione. Mi sento a di casa... anche se so con certezza che Roma non sara' la città in cui voglio vivere, perche' lentamente, ma inesorabilmente qui la qualita' della vita si sta abbassando.
Ma bella è bella... che senti er friccichio ner core quanno la guardi.
Oggi 30/12/2006, prima di iniziare ad affrontare una nuova vita, ho deciso di aprirmi un blog, non ho la più pallida idea di cosa sarà la mia vita, tremo come una foglia al vento, c'ho un mondo di cose da fare, ma non riesco ad uscire di casa, c'ho bisogno di scrivere, elaborare, understand. Well, let's see what brings this new launch. I'm going to buy a phone subscription ... I forgot I just moved to Brussels or Brussels (Bruxelles in French, Brussel in Dutch, German Brüssel, Brussels in English, English Bruselas, Bruxelas in Portuguese) ... cool eh? Today of course it rains.
Today 30/11/2007 For eleven months away from my first post ... exchange of new life. I get home. I'm home. Long list of things to do, same fears that bind me, the same need to write, draw, understand. I changed the templates for the blog and put a new line. But I'm always I encountered my life ... eleven months ago, the attempt to realize a dream, a new plan of life ... now it seems not to have such. So much has happened and yet I always have the same fears and the same fragility ', and to compulsively repeat the same mistakes often. I look around scared as if I had twenty years experience behind us and nothing to lean on. Young women spectacular (spectacular is that stupid men leave behind) come knocking on my door asking for advice, that the only thing that I've got to give it to my confusion. Old friends essays celebrate my return as I did not see the failures in the eyes. And a knight in love with colored gerbera leaves every morning in front of my window. My depression I saw in my face, I recognize his sure-footed, who knows where to hit, love hit me from behind and plant fragrant flowers where I pay only tears. oscillates as a pendulum and I try my direction. good start ... of course it's sunny out today. Apart from that dreams go if one makes them go some others will have always defended you should have seen them finish
I spend the weekend with her , last week I met her (cooking by god) and she (which has just Laureta). The blogosphere is beginning to have faces and smiles ... more beautiful than Image.
If you have any suggestions for a new template are welcome ... I'm meowing in the dark, or I've got too snobby tastes.
Have a good weekend ... the tartablu goes for a walk;)
... I'm looking for a template that I like, a decent job and to survive without killing my mother. Nn she became aware that I am 36 years old, tells me to wash my hands and blow my nose ... exact words. I wanted to make a new post with the new template, but I lose too much to write .... I just finished reading the night pushing farther than Mario Calabresi (with Lula). I read it in four hours. It took me fifteen minutes to recover. Mario Calabresi was born in 1970, is one year older than me. We crossed the same time, we are of the same generation ... that's only 70 years, those called Lead the years, I have studied in books, read the articles, they took a father to him and marked his life forever. But the most 'beautiful this book is the absence of hatred or resentment, a witness and very sobering. And then a thought, the temptation remains strong in my country, Italy, the country I love, to forget, to pretend that nothing has happened, instead of seeking truth 'and justice, the only way to turn the page and reconcile. In South Africa avoided a civil war ...
Dear Mario, maybe you'll never know, but thank you.
It 's a new day .. and how all the new dawn that open our time is the desire to innovate, to look at the reflected image with our new awareness of how the advance of the succession of moments and the plasma models in its piacimento.In this place made of naive distraction, play, hidden passions, love never born, genius, stupidity, intelligence, amicizie che fioriscono e muiono , illusioni, delusioni, menzogne, tristi verità ,spassosa allegria, deprimente ostilità, coinvolgenti sorrisi, avvolgenti emozioni, misere fughe da realtà mai vissute, sensibilità che accendono il cuore, istinti spenti, istinti accesi, istinti nulli,anime colorate anime grigie, incontri, scontri, sorrisi e pianti ho navigato , vissuto , dipinto, scolorito, spogliato , rivestito, mentito, detto verità brucianti, detto stupidità geniali e banali, ho visto luci abbaglianti, il buio più pesto, la bellezza più evidente, la bruttezza più sconcertante....e c'è chi ancora non la chiama realtà, chi ancora non crede alle mie verità.
PREMESSA: conobbi Isa qualche anno fa, venne nel mio gruppo, si presentò come una donna spiritosissima, lei fu complice di tanti miei segreti, con lei mi confidavo, aveva sempre una buona parola per tutti, con lei e Massimo lavorammo per la home del gruppo, del quale, per la stima che ho nei suoi riguardi, ne divenne moderatrice. Successero poi delle cose che mi fecero allontanare da tutto, lasciai il gruppo in mani di Isa, fino a che..... un giorno, per cause personali, sparì....L'ho ritrovata da pochi giorni, con mio immenso piacere, per me, per come la conosco, sarebbe facile poter parlare bene di Lei, è una donna dall'animo stupendo, gentilissima, sempre pronta ad ascoltarti, a mettere in secondo piano tutto, per un sorriso, you and I dedicate this poem to his love, I am truly grateful for having allowed the dream of a blog as I wanted I could come true, ISA THANK YOU, THANK YOU FOR A REAL HEART, AS YOU HAVE DONE FOR YOU AS TO THE FRIEND THAT YOU ARE SINCERE AND TRUE .... I LOVE YOU ..... ISA KISS ... THAT YOU LOVE ALWAYS Imperva on everything, thanks to your love, you have shared with me for this blog ........ sorry ..... but it was also nice to see you working together on this achievement .... .... ISA GRAZIEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!
prefazione: Giampy lo conobbi anni fa, fu una delle prime persone che conobbi in chat, a lui sono legata particolarmente, mi faceva sentire bambina, quando ancora ignara di che mondo difficile sia la chat, mi ha fatto sperare che tutti fossero come lui. Di animo dolcissimo, un uomo che per la sua carica vitale e la sua serietà, è un " buon partito" , un uomo veramente unico. Pensa caro diario, lo chiamavo a qualsiasi ora della sera, e lui era sempre disponibile ad aiutarmi, io profana del pc, e lui dolcissimo e sempre disponibilissima mi diceva " dedy ma hai un pc a carbonella? ".....con lui ho passato i più bei momenti di chat, quando ancora non esistevano boot, ignoranti, cafoni, voltafacce, insensitive, and things like that. That's why I have a memory of Giampy sweet ....... and he knows that I want a world of good but derives from the heart ...... Giampy Sweet, wonderful voice, wonderful man, to you these lines .. .. Take the heart.
A lump in my throat the thought of you burned alive in a thousand winds remorse mischievous only in an ancient sense quanto quella mela cosi'saporita e lucida di belle intenzioni e parole fiorite io prigioniero di te in questi gironi mentre fuggo a cavallo di angeli senza sesso urla feroci dentro e poi silenzio fuori percorrendo un viale il viale infinito e non odo altro che il sibilo delle loro ali bianchissime e pure .io adesso rimango con me stesso, lo vedo quel viale un alito leggero di vento in faccia cammino lentamente scalzo, pochi fili di paglia ondeggiano ancora. ricostruisco il mio futuro aspettando il tuo cuore il cuore di donna che... mi aiuterà ad uscire da quest'attesa prolungata da troppi anni, non farmi attendere ancora molto apri il mio cuore rimettimi le ali aiutami a volare.. .cogli il mio amore riscattami dal destino......
prefazione: Questa poesia mi è stata gentilmente " donata" da Deliziosamediterranea, una cara amica, dolcissima, la pubblico con piacere e La ringrazio di cuore.
ALLA SEMPLICITA' DELLA VITA. L a vita la vorrei piu' semplice
Senza falsita' e menzogne
La vita la vorrei realmente giusta
La vita la vorrei piu' vita.
Senza parole graffianti
they get to break
a planet of virtue '
If you do not do the right thing
When you only to add points.
life I want a little more 'healthy
Although it is not' guilt of life
but of who sells it and the mask
Whose sick with jealousy and envy hurts
Who confuses plugs with eyes
Who plagiarizes, whose minds of those who kill.
want her life with deep respect,
honor the estimate because the 'life is not' a game
preface : a Man of a Thousand Faces, a man of many personalities, perhaps ..... but it is a orsettino sweet, a person of strong feeling, he always supervises, controls, even when it seems there is no else, defender of the weak, unable to create with his laughter, so many situations that are incomprehensible to many, want to give a name to this person, it is virtually impossible, so do not use the nik with those who know him, but an equally known, the way he makes me feel close to me many times protected, because I know that when else is he, I'm never alone .... ... you sweet friend and my words ...... THANK YOU ......
Remember? Just when of our flight twice over the fences high of perpetual snow warmed my hands on your wings on your fears calm listening to the beats of your heart that heart so full that heart so full of myself your days so 'simple your speeches like a calm lake reflect all that I found in you. There is no 'more' to track me of becoming, past words and gestures exchanged , me you stay when I felt something , feel I have left you, slight movements sweet in looks clear.
PREFACE : Dedicated to a woman who must know, a woman who has the smile, but on the face, and a in great torment, a torment because of misunderstandings with the rest of the world, thoughts and words could describe waste them on, feeling strong, fragile in its entirety, has many desires; many dreams, one in particular, being a mom, all the above steps, but would not support never disappoint his great love, His Son. He lives in his function, it was sacrificed in his honor, to give the stability that is collecting a handful, is the fruit of their sacrifices as a woman, a mother, the rest? takes second place .... just a little advice my friend, no need to suppress the tears, the torment, for fear of appearing not sure the person does not need to see the inner happiness, just not to disappoint the other, you are a delicate flower, do not allow to crush your spirit, just because they believe you to be strong ...... to you these few lines ... I know you'll understand.
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Bodies in Motion fake smiles my bones vibrate sounding thousand cases between harmonics searching for the perfect melody inquiring eyes sad eyes hands curiose cercando qualcosa in questo rumore ordinato che io avverto solo nelle ossa non voglio sentirlo non voglio provare la ricerca spasmodica di un altro paio d'occhi di un altro paio di mani di parole da scartare come regal inon voglio tutto questo. Sono fasciata di silenzio.
PREFAZIONE : conosciuto da poco, persona sensibilissima, di lui so poco e niente, da quel che ho capito è una persona che ama la tranquillità, l'armonia, disposto a ritornare sui suoi passi laddove un'incomprensione iniziale, gli ha dato un impressione errata, disposto al dialogo, al confronto, a volte permaloso, ma comunque disinvolto, seppur la sua disinvoltura secondo me...nasconde una grande timidezza, soprattutto nel rapporto con una donna, non ama gli scorretti, le ingiustizie, quando parla sa cosa vuole, rincorre i suoi obbiettivi, non si ferma dinnanzi a nulla, ama amare, valutare le pe rsone, o gli sono indifferenti, o le apprezza. A lui dedico questi versi...